Yeah I was one of those people. I still kinda am. But I agree with your sentiment. The biggest risk of turning things violent is that there's more likely a chance for an authoritarian system to emerge than a truly egalitarian socialist one.
So I've decided that the best thing is to try to figure out ways to develop alternative stuff to market systems. Grow your own vegetables. Host your own cloud storage/streaming service. Try to contribute to ongoing projects in your community to help realize that(volunteer at free clinics, food pantries) and try to join an organization.
I don't think it's just as simple as going to therapy but I've been in therapy for years and I'm the happiest I've ever been. I really got to work through stuff that I had been dealing with for years. I think it's hard to figure it out on your own, but I don't think a therapist is the only thing you need.
I'm reading "The Fort Bragg Cartel" by Seth Harp. It's about Delta Force and all the hidden criminal activity that goes on at the highest levels of the military. These guys are the most elite soldiers on Earth and they are constantly raping, murdering, boozing, doing drugs and selling drugs. And how the state spends a lot of money covering up their crimes. Also they're all racist and sexist.
It's a great book. Very well researched. Seth Harp is a former military turned investigative journalist. So he's the exact right person to write the book and he did a fantastic job.
I started shaving my head at 23. Hats make my head sweaty and they're uncomfortable. Also the confidence to not wear a hat makes you stand out for a certain kind of woman.
What do these morons think is going to happen when they turn in something they've never read nor understood?