Staying off of bourgeoise social media, marxist theory, and staying away from my family (hindutva shite ಠ_ಠ) is what had helped me the most as of this point. I will check out the website, thank you for linking me.

I haven't suffered with addiction thankfully, but I disassociate alot. And I just completely hole myself up in the room as well, for months. Occassionally figuring myself out of it, then minor inconvenience, then back again.

I identity as a man (AMAB as well), there was very little info I could actually find on male BPD, most of these resources just focus on dehumanizing women. Personality disorder discourse in general feels very murky.