sleeplessone

Maybe a big Voltron girl?

Chuds measuring their wives' vaginal circumference like they're prepping for an IRL game of FATAL.

The xeeters are way ahead of you.

Nice the 0% microplastic balls meets the 1% biome vagina!
Such a romantic storyline

Vibethropic

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As someone with executive functioning struggles, there’s a sort of paradoxical aspect to it that is hard. I believe children are supposed to grow up to be fairly autonomous; not in the individualist bootstraps sense, but in the sense of being confident toward pursuing and fulfilling their needs and desires.

I definitely have executive functioning issues. I'm pretty sure I'm autistic and deep in autistic burnout, so that makes functioning a lot harder. I'm also pretty fucked up from the death of a parent when I was a young child. My surviving parent gently nudged me to try a bunch of interests, but the gaping hole in my psyche made it so I was pretty depressed from the get go. Combine that with psychological abuse at the hands of a psychotic step parent (as in they regularly had literal psychoses and delusions that spurred them to be cruel to my surviving parent, not in the dismissive ableist kind of way), and I've got a lot poison in me I've yet to purge from my system even though that was over a decade ago.

Being conscientious under a system like this is its own element to add to paralysis.

Tell me about it! When I mentioned my embedding in a bourgeoisified proletarian social circle, my paralysis comes as much from the mental impact of knowing I need to slowly seek out a revolutionary social circle (while not completely blowing up at the people I already know and burning bridges) as it is the more obviously material aspects of it.

I quoted the bit about conscientiousness because I had an experience recently that really highlights how Capital can stick its hand up peoples' asses and speak through them like a puppet, and damn it I need to vent about it!

I had traveled to another city with some friends I've known for a long time to attend an event. I realized that I forgot to bring antiperspirant, so I left the hotel on my own to go get some from a local pharmacy. On the way, a homeless man flagged me down and asked me to buy him some food. Besides wanting the help the guy, he suggested getting the food at the same pharmacy I happened to be going to without me mentioning I was going there. I felt like it would be an especially dick move to turn him down. That, and I had bought a coffee from the hotel's restaurant without realizing it was Starbucks. Not only did I feel guilty for unwittingly violating BDS; I had also spilled the last bit of coffee on my face on my walk shortly before meeting the man, and had even taken my glasses off to lick it off. My aura was pretty weak.

I made the short walk with the guy to the pharmacy, he made some strange remarks about having been dropped on his head as a baby (he even took off his hat to show me the bump on his head), and I only understood about a third of what he was saying. Though mostly incomprehensible, he was very nice and not threatening in the least. We got to the pharmacy, I bought him the groceries he picked out, I bought my antiperspirant, and we parted ways.

Later that day, when I was eating lunch with my friends, I mentioned my side quest from earlier. I thought it was an interesting little event and would be fun to bring up. They fucking harped on me for it! They said I could've gotten killed (it was broad daylight and the entire route went through a busy area), and that I should've just ignored him entirely. One of these friends (whose humor consists mostly of rage b8ing people) mocked me by pointing out the window to another homeless person panhandling on the street below and saying, "Look, a homeless person! You should go down there and give him some money!". Even the most proletarian and left leaning one of the group (I think he's some kind of demsucc) said it was a bad idea, though he didn't twist the knife like the others.

I know that individual acts of charity, and even charity organizations, are no solution to poverty, but Jesus Hussein Christ! Their reactions were damn sickening! It wasn't even a "you're bragging about doing a good thing, get off your high horse" kinda reaction, but a "fuck da homeless, but make it sound socially acceptable" kind of thing.

The dark one, Capital, possesses those who do not guard against him. Through the lips of his legion, he whispers lies into the ears of the masses. Against those who would bring about his demise, he deploys his barbed tongue; the resolve of most crumbles. Against the few whose souls escape his grasp, he deploys fire and brimstone; bullets and white phosphorous; surveillance and assassination; carpet bombings and guided missiles. Though he has long reigned over the earth, his power is weakening. In his all-consuming hunger, he devours his own legs out from under himself! For every person he kills, dozens see him for what he truly is and take arms against him. Those who have merely some of his blessings are betrayed, immiserated; his lies may linger in their hearts for a time, but cold reality will force them to see the only way out. Capital must die! Capital will die!

I meant to respond to more, and I do need to work on my confidence like you said, but I ended up in a stream of consciousness creative writing kind of thing at the end there for some reason. Now I'm tired.

On its own religion arises & develops naturally and, if left alone, is ultimately harmless in and of itself.

How does religion develop naturally and be left alone when it's inextricably tied to reality, especially when the only societies that have existed for the past several millennia were class societies?

Also, how do we reconcile materialism and the militant atheism that's been part of the foundation of ML parties with atheism being a bourgeois invention to flatten people into soulless automata?

I've been having a crisis of faith in dialectical materialism lately, especially the latter part. I've been an atheist for my entire adult life and all I have to show for it is empty comfort and self hatred. I've seen the downright miraculous transformations people have when they re-establish their relationship with God. It's indisputable proof that God exists, that He cares for us, and that the evangelists the reddit atheists would always argue with were right: only a fool says in his heart there is no God. Why should anyone treat the material as primary, let alone all that exists?

Yet, as far as I can tell, this is incompatible with Marxism-Leninism. Even people who are both religious and committed MLs, like Lady Izdihar, offer explanations that try to reconcile the two that aren't convincing to me.

Update: Everything past the first two paragraphs was basically a mini-crashout. I've been having my bouts of intense rumination, irrationality, and hopelessness increasingly often. For the most part I've at least had the good sense not to post through it, but I made that mistake when I made this comment. I think I need to get away from social media (even the FOSS kind) for a pretty long time.

For what it's worth, regarding the "God" question, I find the idea of its existence to be ridiculous if I put in even the tiniest amount of thought about it, but the overwhelming majority of people I have to interact with in real life take it seriously. It gets to the point where I start thinking I must be the wrong one if so many people disagree with me, and the mental stress of trying to jam the square peg of society's belief into the triangular hole of my mind makes me desperately try to convince myself something is true even if I fundamentally cannot believe it.

I have no employable skills! How am I supposed to make money now?

Literally every CEO ever, but somehow only applicable to the woke caricature.

I'm surprised to hear the Destruction of Reason (a piece of theory I don't hear mentioned much around here) and Losurdo in the same sentence without mentioning Losurdo's work on Nitezsche.

Sucking yourself up from your own penis is the new pulling yourself up by your bootstraps.

Okay, but have you considered that the 90% of those 1.3B Chinese residents who like their government and want to keep it are simply brainwashed, ignorant, or stupid?

Silly tank E. The thought police, which are totally real (trust me bro), will come after any who dare express dissent. This is why we enlightened westerners with our Enlightenment(TM) values need to support the US invasion of China across the Taiwan Strait while also pretending it was actually China who struck first (just like the heckin' unwholesome Vietcong 😡 did at the Gulf of Tonkin) and that Taiwan is actually a sovereign state fighting off an imperialist invader instead of a puppet government for the wholesome keanu chungus defenders of democracy.

Slobber Tie Won! Down with Zizzy Ping!

Authoritarianism is when you're a dick. Stepping in to use authority to deal with someone who's being a dick? Somehow not authoritarian.

There's a whole ass therapy paradigm based on looking at people this way.

In my own experience, my parts seem less well defined. Kinda closer to Disco Elysium like aspects (though even less clear cut than those).

Just another anecdote, but a normie bluemaga lib I know just posted this in the friends groupchat.

It's a Mao quote. The source I was reading cited it as coming from Strategic Questions in China’s Revolutionary War, though the copy on marxists.org appears to be a different translation and the exact phrase doesn't appear. The closest I could find in the linked source is "Nothing in the world is difficult for one who sets his mind to it."

The context the source was using it in wasn't idealist, but the idealism is definitely what appealed to me enough to post it here. Out of its original context it sounds like, as we say here in the US, "mind over matter".

There are no difficult things, only people without sufficient resolve.

The gang's all here.

People being able to breath makes it much easier absorb new information, even malicious information. Allowing people to breath is a plot by the reds to propagandize to God fearing Americans. My grandfather never breathed in his life; his brain oxygen levels were so low that the pinkos were never able to reach him with their lies.

Apparently it really is from a-z quotes, but the only reference provided there is that he made the remark some time in 1982.

Edit: Some more digging shows that it's from a speech he made about something called Project Economic Justice. However, this transcript says it was delivered in 1987, not 1982.