I get this, I clear my cookies, it goes away for awhile. I wonder if I can just find the specific cookie and remove it frequently this whould just stop.
That's rough man. It seems you got the exeriance and a hell of a work ethic. But losing the job is like instant burnout. I manged to get back in my industry but never really took time to recover. And no matter how good I am now I know I'm just as expendable as last time.
Still keep learning new skills, keep networking, eventually you'll find passion for the work again.
That's that one bit of advice I can give is work for a job that's aligned with your values. I'm in a non profit now. I don't even care if they get rid of me anymore I can be happy knowing the work I am doing is helping people. That's enough to keep me working even if I'm drowning in debts.
If you can't find one that pays consider volunteering. At the very least it'll keep you sane.
Appearance is a one thing. Mostly just being fat. But i see that as debit, and I have a lot of debits including the monitary kind.
I've also had the usual sense non worth from a series of bad relationships, including an employer treating me like drone for sevreal years before firing me without any stated reason.
Thank you. Your "set in stone" point makes me wonder if my asexuality is wrapped up in my identity. And that may be another thing I'd need to reflect on.
Fortunately, I am patient enough to wait amd see how things go. Not that I have much of a choice.
The anxity around enjoying familkiar things is normal to me at least. I can be experiencing peace and quiet. But have fear that an alarm is going to go off or somebody is going to start yelling for no reason. I need earplugs, music or white noise. I can't just enjoy the silence.
I think discomfort about being restricted is just normal regardless of your nero status.
I had a comment up here. I thought I was misreading the part about you fining your roomate. But after reading these other comments..
OP please explain what you mean by that. I assume you don't mean your demanding actual money in these cases. Because as the comments point out thatd be very inappropriate.
With my own roomate if they leave a plate out they'll get a lecture at most. I know they don't intend malace with such things it's just part of their adhd. They'd do better if they could.
I dont know your roommates circumstances, but can't imagine a scenario where not putting a plate away is an act if malace against you.
Agreed, I'm new too the community but I am sure if OP asked this in autism@lemmy.world it would be just fine. Folks there are very kind.
In my family we'd joke Star Trek was closer to our religion then any other nonsense. We'd at least have a ritual around gathering as a family to watch it. I'm the only diagnosed one but I assume my family is thick with Nerodivergency. Also I'm not even that into trek.
When I was about 6 my older brother told me Santa didn't exist and I was like "yhea that makes sense". He also mentioned God didn't exist and again and I reponded "well of course not". At some point in my life the existence of Santa was more believable then the idea of God.
Growing up I was exposed to so many differnt cultures, differnt Gods. I think they are all valid, it is important to be secular within reason. Honestly, I've been a part of enough nerdy Fandoms over the years to see the parallels. I'd no more insult the Christian God then I whould Picard.
More to the question though it may have to donwith the whole sense of community and belonging thing.
From my understanding churches are a pretty vulnerable experience, there's signing (potentally loud singinging), confessing of sins, forced friendliness, and positive expressions, and higtened emotions. It seems incredibly socially draining. If I had to do that unto school I'd have had a considerably more breakdowns as a kid.
I was thinking about Dungeon Keeper recently. I was really hoping since 2 Point revived Theme Hospital the may do the same for this other Bullfrog classic.
I have not heard of this FX thing. I may have to try it out. I always felt there was a lot more potential to this game that was never recognized. Maybe this will do a better job of it.
I love the formilizer and judge tools. I've gotten really into using the hemmingway editor but it's been making me sound very dry and robotic.
I'd love to have these kind of thing integrated into all text inputs, messages, word docs, lemmy posts. Even though I have to tools they are a pain to use. Especially in mobile.
It's not open-source but Trello is like an extension of my brain. Though it may only help if you understand how use a kahnban board and some basics of project management.
Many of the things we do can be projects. You just need to break them down into small more manageable tasks. This tool then helps you track all the task.
There is a open source version of trello out there I saw it on lemmy a few days ago. I'll post it if I can remember it.
What one is working for you?