That's normal. Rest longer, keep going. Do 8 then 5 then 3 then 1. You'll see progress fairly quickly and soon you'll get to 9 then 10 etc. When I first started about a year ago, I could barely manage 5 pull ups, and maybe 10 pushups. Now I can bang out multiple sets of 10 pull-ups, and a set of ~100 push ups. Also worth noting that some people, depending on body type, have a harder time with pull ups. I think arm length possibly becomes a factor. Not a scientist. Every pull up is progress (:
We lost another one. I'm glad I made it thru my addiction alive...something I never thought I'd say "I'm glad to be alive". If any of you have people in your life who are in active addiction, theres not much you can do besides be there when it all falls apart. Don't take their actions personally. They exist in a prison within themselves. They do feel guilty, and probably want to die most days. Sending my love for all my people ✌️
Hey so I am empathetic to your point, but also have some disagreements.
I voted for Biden, and will again. But both sides are bad. One side is definitely worse, but doesn't change the fact that dems are status quo, pandering, old money pearl clutchers who greatly benefit off of for profit criminal justice, and the suppression of working class. They are not my ally.
I'm really tired of the "perfect is the enemy of good" dnc party line, while we allow good enough to be enemy of better.
Just my thoughts. Also alot of the liberals act like this is sports or some shit. If you browse the conservative communities and the liberal ones, both sides are literally just mirroring eachother, instead of going after the people who put us here in the first place.
I'm a lefty, and american, and the politics here are rigged. I don't really blame the people who sit out tbh. They're up against a power, that quite frankly, will take a fair amount of upheaval to take care of. And no one wants to do that. It's a shitty state of affairs.
I really hope we can get money out of politics, and have viable 3rd parties..but tbh, the dnc would try to stop that, so...they aren't my true ally, just cause the other side is worse.
I kinda like the sugar at the bottom, but I'm a degenerate like that. (I've mostly excised my sweet tooth now. My dad is in his 50s and almost died from diabetic shock, with no knowledge of his condition)
I started working construction when I was 15. I'm in my 30s and my body is broken, but like, I gotta eat right? Obviously this 14 yr old shouldn't be working at a bar, and this is a symptom of a larger problem, but that's SoCiAlIsM.
Which should be taught, imo. police are not your friends. They arrest you for profit. I learned how to deal the hard way. But least I know now. I guess teaching it would be counter to the whole reason of policing so yea. 🤷
It should really only be a stop gap while we handle the education bit of addiction, but that will never happen. And I mean from early education on. Give kids useful lessons like critical thinking, mindfulness, etc
I was addicted to fent. I am from east coast, and hung out in shooting galleries, tent cities, bandos, you name it.
I watched people steal from passed out people. Picked my way through bodies. Watched multiple people get shot, and was caught up in a drive by where i had to dive behind a parked car. Robbed at gun point, knife point, arrested a bunch, served a little time, went to rehab. I don't miss that life at all.
I am an advocate for criminal justice reform all the way, especially decriminalization of drugs. But tbh, I would have never gotten clean without jail and rehab. The jail part was unnecessary imo. I just needed a chance. Any chance to break the cycle of addiction. I was a semi functioning addict, barely, and sometimes not at all. I had people that cared for me though..and many of these people can't say the same. I probably would have never checked myself into rehab, but I was also poor and couldn't afford to not do drugs, so i could function for work to survive. No health insurance either. I think it would be OK to arrest people for a light sentence and not strap em with acriminal history afterwards... but the justice system is really archaic and absolutely fucked ime. Once these people get out, there ain't shit. No job. No housing. No one and nothing but drugs, police harassment and back to jail, cause once the hooks are in, the legal system doesn't let go. These poor people are $$$ to it.
I don't rely know how we should handle the problem, but I think decriminalization, even to the point of manufacturing pharmaceutical grade drugs for consumption, while offering rehab, housing, and support will go a long way in easing the suffering, and getting people on a different track. I think alot of the drug culture in America comes from the fact it is illegal as well. It is romanticized in some areas, namely large areas surrounding open air markets.
Tbh it's all just a by product of the larger system. It's a feature of our greedy society. People seek an escape from their shitty existence where money is God, and money is then made off the problem on multiple fronts. Pharmaceutical companies pumping out methadone, suboxone, for profit prisons, for profit legal system, keeps cops busy, and it gives a platform to politicians, all while gutting specific populations and classes.
The smartest people I've met in my life were in a real bad way. They'd mean trouble in society quite frankly. Not in a bad way. I don't know. I just felt like ranting.
Now I have been outa school since 2008, but back then, in public school, they didn't teach us shit. Like actual useful things. How to deal with emotions, personal finance, How to deal with police, mindfulness, critical thinking..nothing. all busy work and history through the American lense (propaganda). I even had a science teacher who was super religious and said earth was created 6000 years ago...it was geology ffs. Math was the worst imo. Solve for X, zero context. The only reasoning they gave to learn it was "to get in to college".
Look into mindfulness practices. Do some art. Hobbies etc. Music is my preference. Also, try to appreciate that you get to experience anything at all. It's a wild ride, enjoy it all. Don't fight your feelings. You only get to experience these kind of things rarely, and they have the potential to bring you closer to your self. Appreciation and happiness are perspectives, and they are largely down to choice. How do you want to feel? Practice that. The human mind is a crazy, malleable thing.
I self medicated for long long time. Seen death up close, both people close to me, and random people. I've been through my fair share of trauma just like you, and roughly your age as well.
Death is completion of the cycle. Life is really a beautiful thing, and the fact we can be aware of such things make it even harder, messier, and even more beautiful.
I wouldn't call it addiction, in most cases it is dependence...unless your facing legal trouble due to your use, but keep smoking. But that's more to do with shitty legal practices.
I've been addicted to real addictive substances and weed ain't the same at all ime.
For long time users, stopping can cause some withdrawal symptoms, sure, but nothing worth fear mongering over imo.
It really varies person to person. Some people let it run their life. Others not so much.
Practicing mindfulness has been the most important thing in my life for my own health and growth as a person.
I got into eastern philosophy in high school, and never really looked back, only building my own system tailored to me and extrapolating the principles into every possible facet, and every moment. It's a battle to stay constantly on the point, but one I really enjoy having.
People just have different tolerance for how much death is caused by their own existence, your gonna kill something regardless to survive, that is life. I am not really to judge, especially a culture that I have very little interaction with.
I'm no longer dumping my trash in landfills, I'm burning it instead.